You are on a journey. A spiritual one in fact. We all are.....we just have to accept it and figure how where we are now.
Alot of folks are searching for Jesus in "this". "This" may be some sort of trial or setback you are facing. Maybe "this" is not what you were told about in Sunday School while staring out the stained glass windows. Maybe "this" is not how you viewed the Christian life.
Everything is layered. Marriages. Organizational flow charts at work/church. Situations. Problems. Since everything is layered, we must peel the layers back like we are going through the layers of an onion. Poverty doesn't happen overnight. Missed opportunities at work don't happen within the course of one work day or even one work week. And relational problems (friends/family) don't happen just over a Facebook status. There's more than just one thing. We are searching for Jesus in "this".
The chaos. The blurried picture of what we thought the Christian life would be like.....
Time to peel the onion...............Starting with the most relevant layers and going deeper.....
Layer 1: The Present---What are we currently experiencing about God? In this chaos we call Life, we often question God's presence in the present moment. We lose a job--we blame God. We experience the death of a loved one--we blame God. And if we do not get our way and we are not "happy", we blame God again. So in your current situation, where are you seeking VALIDATION from? Start there.
Layer 2: Assumptions---You know what they say about assumptions. It is true. Many of us pick up assumptions from our churchs, our parents, friends, family, and social groups. Here are a few I have heard ALOT lately...............
"God just wants me to be happy. Everything is about my happiness".
"My kids are better off because they are always in church or at Christian school".
"I have nice things so therefore I am blessed".
"Because I go to church, I will get into heaven".
"But you have to do this, because it is the way we have always done it".
These assumptions are damaging. They are assuming that the Christian life is about outer appearance and looking the part. God does not care about the outer. Jesus yelled at the Pharisees because "they drank from the cup but their hearts were far from him". The Pharisees knew the rules but they missed out on the joy and peace that truly knowing Jesus can bring.
What are your assumptions AND where did you get them?
Layer 3: The Past---The past hurts. There are all types of abuses: physical, verbal, sexual....and the one church folks cringe at.....spiritual abuse. We must face the past. This looks different for everyone. Some people need to confront the person who hurt them. Others just need to be real with themselves and acknowledge that someone did actually hurt them.
Take 5 minutes and write down 5 key folks that have hurt you. Take 10 minutes after that and sit in silence. What can you and God do with the hurt and what will healing look like for you? Talk to a trusted friend---you need support.
Layer 4: Your Future---It is easier to see God's hands in "THIS" when you have dealt with the things that have been intangled in your life. You can move ahead in what God has for you in the future. You are free to fly. That does not mean the stuff from the past will not creep up here and there; however, you are more prepared now in the future as you are aware of the things that have held you back and impacted your view of the Christian life.