As a child, I enjoyed reading and writing class. During my middle school and high school years, I was that person who enjoyed writing short stories, poems, etc for class assignments and in my free time. However, I was often hesitant to share my writings.
When I was at college, I was thrust into an unfamiliar world. 400 miles from home, I learned how to navigate the adult world while facing new challenges. My major was ministry in college and spiritual formation in graduate school; I wrote ALOT.
I remember taking a preaching course during my junior year. My professor had one on one meetings with each student after we had preached to the class. In our meeting, the professor asked me about my future dreams for ministry. I shared them and he said to me: "Ministry is a journey. You may end up in 40 years doing exactly what you went to college for. However, your journey may be very bumpy and this is normal. Remember that your gifts mean nothing if they do not help others." I thanked my professor for his wisdom and hurried off to my on campus job.
As I encountered several ministry experiences since college, I have had to discern the beauty from the bullcrap. I went to college with the mindset that I would always work in the church until I retired---and moved to a senior living community where I would hustle other seniors for denture cream over games of shuffleboard. I never knew I would end up in another career field.
I would be lying if I said I did not attempt to come back and work in the church. But as I explored a comeback (at least my idea of a comeback), I realized my heart and vision for ministry did not align with many churches from a professional position standpoint. I wanted to reach more people and not be confined by denominational allegiance, bureaucrats who guard power positions, or budgets. In time, 4-C Ministries was created and then we transitioned to Java and Jesus.
I have been actively volunteering in the local church since I left professional ministry. I am once again a church member. I value my time at church and my time working on Java and Jesus.
My comeback to ministry has been different. I had to re-invent myself. My education and experience were solely on local church ministry. I had no experience in producing podcasts, writing blogs, editing a website, or marketing to churches for guest speaking opportunities.
I refused to quit.
I knew this was something I could not give up. I refused to be another person that quit on God and sat at home and did nothing to advance the Kingdom by putting myself out there. I do not think I can save the world. But I believe I can help others because that is what we are called to do.
But here is why I write.....
For people who lost all hope.
For people who lost their heart along the daily battle known as Life.
For men---that they would know the strength that we need for ourselves and others is not external.
For women---that they would find their beauty in God and not be held captive by how our culture views beauty.
To provide additional resources for "church folks".
To provide hope for those who don't like church, don't know the Church, or question their spiritual beliefs.
I write for YOU.
I write because I want to be another voice of hope. I write because I want to see others living fully alive in their desires that God gave them. I write because too many people have let themselves die inside years ago and are currently slothing through life. I write because I want others to learn from my success, struggles, and experiences.